Cynophobia is when a person has an abnormal fear of dogs.
Anyone who knows me well, would most likely diagnose me as a cynophobiac.
They'd also be surprised, yet happy to know, I'm conquering that fear little by little.
Fear deprives us from life's most wonderful experiences.
Since age two, a fear of cats and dogs has held me back from being comfortable with and loving animals.
I attribute this fear to my mother. She is afraid of many animals for reasons I don't know or understand. As her only daughter, I followed her everywhere and probably picked up on this fear.
At this stage in my life, I've decided I didn't want to live in fear of animals that many people find so much comfort in, so I went to UPAWS to meet some furry friends.
When I got to the shelter, any confidence I had possessed immediately left, and I shrank back to that two year-old girl who wanted to squeal and run for her mother, but I put on my big girl pants, because it was show time.
To my surprise, I wasn't the only person at the shelter who experienced a fear of animals.
Even a couple UPAWS staff members had shared my fear in the past.
"When I was growing up, we weren't really exposed to animals, so I kind of had a fear based off just the unknown and I think my mom was a little bit fearful so, I think it kind of transitioned over to me and I had a really hard time being around dogs up until I was about 18 years old" says UPAWS manager, Lareina Vanstrien.
Ann Brownell, also works at UPAWS. She started at the shelter as a way to become more comfortable with both cats and dogs.
"I love cats now, I just adore them, but at first I thought, I'm not sure. They're kind of scary, they're going to scratch me" adds Ann.
Through education and interacting with the animals, Ann came to love them.
As I continued touring the shelter, I also became more comfortable with the animals.Thanks to UPAWS and the animals, I've been able to chip away at a life-long fear.
Here's to the fear that's held me back, made me feel unsafe and in a way alienated me from society.
You no longer control my life.
I've faced my fear.
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